Am I Not Enough?

Anxiety can be crippling! How do I know? I've dealt with anxiety for years and still do at times. But nearly two years ago, when I felt like my world was crumbling all around me, (and what had not yet crumbled seemed to be on very shaky ground) I found myself asking God what else I have to lose. And His response stopped me in my tracks.

"Am I not enough?" He asked.

I didn't like that question and tried to wiggle around it.

"Of course you are, God! But what about what's happening around me? Didn't you say you would take care of me? Don't you say you want to give people the desires of their hearts? This isn't looking the way I thought it would or how I wanted it to!"

And again He asked "Am I not enough?"

And I still didn't like the question! I wondered if I was supposed to be happy with this situation. I wondered if I should be willing to lose more. What if this was going to be the story of the rest of my life. It was hard for me to simply be still, to simply look at Him and know He is enough when what I really wanted was to see Him do a quick fix and make every thing better.

But this question stayed on my mind.  Over and over I felt as if God was asking me "Am I not enough?" I had to answer. I knew the answer had to be "Yes, God you are enough" but somehow that felt scary. Because it felt like saying that it would be okay to really and truly lose everything. So I began looking at situations I feared, trying to see them through God's eyes. There were so many what ifs.

I began to looking at my what ifs, searching the Scriptures and reading extensively as I looked for answers. And as I searched I found Scriptures throughout the Bible that reveal the nature of God. And I found that by saying "Yes God, You are enough" I was not saying yes to loss but to life! And when I realized that I realized no matter what things looked like around me, the truth was far greater. God is who He says He is and when I grab hold of that and allow Him to have control He will deliver on His promises and who He is.

God (God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit) is enough because . . .

He is my shield (Genesis 15:1)

He is the Creator (Isaiah 44:24, 45:18)

He made me, carries me and delivers me (Isaiah 46:4)

He teaches me to profit and leads me (Isaiah 48:17)

none who wait for Him shall be ashamed (Isaiah 49:23, Joel 2:27)

 He is my deliverer (Jeremiah 1:8,19, Jeremiah 42:11)

He is merciful (Jeremiah 3:12)

He is with me to save me (Jeremiah 30:11, Haggai 1:13, 2:4, Matthew 28:20)

 There is nothing too hard for Him (Jeremiah 32:27)

He breaks the bands of my yoke (Ezekiel 34:27)

He multiplies and increases ( Ezekiel 36:11)

He gives life (Ezekiel 37:6)

He brings fruitfulness (Hosea 14:8)

He is unchanging (Malachi 3:6)

He is the fulfiller of the law (Matthew 5:17)

He brings rest (Matthew 11:29)

He is my Shepherd (Matthew 15:24, John 10:11,14)

He is the God of the living (Matthew 23:32)

He is the bread of life (John 6:48, 51)

He is the light of the world (John 8:12, John 12:46)

He gives abundant life (John 10:10)

He is life (John 11:25)

He is the way, the truth and the life (John 14:6)

He is the true vine (John 15:1, 5)

He is not of this world (John 17:14, 16)

He is the beginning and the end (Isaiah 41:4, Isaiah 44:6, Isaiah 48:12, Revelation 2:23, 21:6, 22:13)

He is the root and the offspring of David, the bright and morning Star (Revelation 22:16)

He is God Almighty, the LORD, my God (Genesis 35:11, Exodus 31:13, Leviticus 11:44, 45, 22:32, Psalm 46:10, Isaiah 42:8, Isaiah 43:15, Isaiah 45:5-6, Isaiah 51:15, Ezekiel 16:62, 20:19, 38:23, Ezekiel 39:7, 22, Hosea 13:4)

There is so much love, life and light in these glimpses of who God is and yet He is so much more. Our human minds can grasp only a small glimpse of who He is. So I can take these glimpses, know they are multiplied by infinity and rest in the fact that He is enough!